Discovered the truth.

I finally know that your crush isn't me after all. I had a feeling that it wasn't me. You asked me who was my crush, I replied "for now, I dont have one". In reality, I was chatting with my crush. I hope you will know this one fine day. When the time is right, when I'm ready to guide you to Jannah, insya'Allah. I will always be your listening ear. You may not know this but....I will fight for any means to be there for you. I will always will. Ya Allah, please watch over her. Dont let her suffer in tears. I dont want to see her feeling sad and all. It makes me sad too to know that I can only do so much to comfort her. Please do Allah. I want to make her mine, before that, I want to change myself. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

Listening ear

I approached you on whatsapp, you only replied like 30 mins after. But during that gap, I was tweeting and channeling all my negative energy to twitter. When you replied, you thought that it was all for you. So you apologized to me. And I was like....what? Why? You did nothing wrong. Then you started explaining why. I told you that it wasn't meant for you. Instead I started pouring out my heart to you. You listened to me. You gave me a fruitful piece of advice. You managed to turn my frown upside down and I was really glad that you did it. I needed that, and I got it. Shukran. You really know how to make me smile again. A person that I could safe keep until the end of my life. Since you don't like to rush into relationships, I will do the same. If I'm right, then we'll continue to wait for each other until the right time comes. Amin. Thank you so much. Allah, please, watch over her.

So sweet for what.

Its been awhile since I last blogged. So here it is, hi. (: Anyway on 25 August went out to Vivo with Haru. He was looking for a marvel character plsuhie. He bought a Thor plushie, he wanted to find a Ironman one. Hahahaha but don't have. Out of stock. Awww so sad. So we took a bus from Vivo that we both don't have any knowledge of, bus 97 to town. Bcos we YOLO and not scared so we GO JE. Hahahahahahaha k. Anyway despite that journey that, we still couldn't find what he wanted. Haru had to leave and I had to go back home alone. Aww. :( But its okay. I took 502 from opp Milennia Tower hehehe long bus rides. <3 During the journey, I disturbed her on twitter telling that I'm in a bus ride. She was freaking jealous. Bwahahahaha. :P Oh!! At that moment she wished that she was in the same bus as me. Heheha awww that literally made me melttttttttttt....... Alahai she so sweet and cute lah please. :3 I told her maybe next time we can explore SG! She said "yay okay!" after my I'm done with my O levels. Hehehe can't wait for that day to come. Insya'Allah I won't screw things up. Amin! Oh Allah, I want her to be my wife, I really and sincerely do love her. Please watch over her till day she becomes mine. Amin ya rabbal 'alamin.

Dear Allah.

Ya Allah, its been ages since I last shed a tear on the praying mat while berdoa-ing to Allah SWT. I felt remorseful of my own past. I saw too much darkness in the old me. I need that guiding light from you, Allah. I need you. I did mentioned something about me starting a family of my own in the future in my prayers earlier. If its not me who is going to guide my future wife? WHO ELSE. Once I'm married to her, her sins will be my responsibility. My children's sins will be my responsibility. My own sins will be own responsibility. I have to answer for all that to the angels sent to interrogate me when I'm in the grave. I'm on my own in there. NO ONE is there to help. Just me, myself and I alone. Oh Allah, please strengthen my iman.

.........hi

Finally we've exchanged numbers. You were so cute to apologize to me that you saved my number wrongly. I wasn't mad at all at you. Instead, I was worried why you did not texted me that day. I didnt saw you in school. I searched high and low for you. But you were nowhere to be seen or maybe my sight was blinded or.......is it just me over-looked for you? Anyway, on I waited for you at the front school gate today. We met, I handed over the eraser that you wanted. Hehehe. OH!! You sent me a random good morning text to me. AWWWWWW I was really melting at that point of time. No girl has even done that. It has always been me sending girls good morning/night texts first. But you......you were DIFFERENT. For a moment, I thought I was in heaven. Words cant describe how elated I was! Hahaha. Unfortunately, when we met it was like "that awkward moment when..." moment. I dont know why. I tried to start a convo with you. I guess its our first time meeting each other, thats why we were like that? I hope this won't prolong. I wanna be with you. I really do... Biar Allah yang memperjodohkan kita. Amin.