Choices

I feel pity for you. I know I'm like giving you hopes on me. I am. Its just that I'm not ready to commit. Should I? But I have a national exam ahead of me. I dont know what to do. I feel like bringing you out on a date and explaining things clearly to you but, do I have the courage to do so? Still uncertain. For this year, as a retain student its either I date you or my books. Which is much more important, you or my grades? Honestly I dont know. I'm trying to balance both of you. But I doubt that I could. Ya Allah... I need help.